I Know I Have Not Always Been

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I see you sweet girl

I see those dark brown eyes

The wonder and excitement within

You’ve experienced more heartache than I will ever know

Yet you keep pressing in.

 

You rocked my world

You were totally unplanned

I guess that’s when you know we’re in the Father’s hands.

 

I know I have not always been, but trust me now I will forever be

I am yours and you are mine, God gave us each other to teach us things.

 

At times I ponder what it is like

What is it like to call me mama?

There was a time you called, “mama” but I was not the one

The other mama answered

You were first her little one.

 

She will always be part of your story and you part of hers

You were born to her first, my love

Those shoes I was not privileged to wear.

 

I cannot fathom all the pain and grief,

You’ve held them so closely in your few short years

You must feel a thousand ways

 Yet at times you must feel… nothing.

 

You are brave my darling daughter

You are brave and so very strong

He has created amazing things within you

I cannot wait to see them all.

 

Today, what I want you to know is that I love you…

I love you, my precious little girl.

 

 I know I have not always been, but trust me now I will forever be

I am yours and you are mine, God gave us each other, now till we reach eternity. 

AJ